Total failure

This week was terribly hard to not feel emotional. This is the only space I can vent to so, don’t laugh at me for being pitiful. I wanna cry, I wanna sing song, I wanna curse and swear. I wanna bang the wall.

School
If you ask me how your classmates are, my reply will be "ok ar". But deep down, I have negative comments on a few. There will be at least one team mate each day I can criticise on.

Let me list out (1 being the most revolting) –
1. A – Can’t you bloody read the questions before asking dumb questions? Farted damn loudly and effectively. Want to present good slide when he did NOTHING.
2. CH – Collect information from people then present as though he thought it himself and get an A
3. S – Same as the above but is a female

The foreign talents from China, Myanmar and Malaysia are the elites of the class. They can get straight As for the whole week. What about me? Not even a hint.


Hope the new faci can break the BCBCBC curse by tau huay kampong chicken

It is Maths and excel every day. Nice hor? UT gone case liao. Nice hor?

Had UT yesterday and school ended at 4.45 pm. Took the 5.30 pm 966 bus and it was packed like sardine. Didn’t attempt to squeeze out so my journey was Woodlands int -> Marine Parade -> Jalan Toa Payoh (1.5 hours!) Waited for 139 for another 0.5 hours and again it was packed to the max. Decided to walk home after giving the finger to the bus but lack of guts.

Friends
Some have best friends since kinder garden. Me? I don’t even have one from secondary school (well, maybe a on and off one?). My phone hasn’t experienced orgasm for a period of time. Maybe I should dial 6100 0000.

Family
Haven’t been talking to my mum for a few days cos it’s her time of the month. As expected, she scolded me because of some ridiculously slight reasons. Anyway, seldom see her recently. Thank you Vesak Day. Go to hell menopause.

Have been quarrelling with my brother every now and then cos he’s always lubricating my keyboard and think he got the priority to use my laptop. The nerve to even scold me. The content of our quarrels is nothing but “fuck you bitch!”.

The feeling this family gives me is that “you are (Hui Ling) a pest”. Do you know how sad I feel when female members are always siding with my brother? Did they speak up for me when I need to use the computer urgently in the past? Why should the younger one let the older and dumber one? If only I had a sister. By the way, my brother was once “scanned” as a female. Maybe it’s an ang ku kueh down there.


Karma
I have no one to blame but myself for being
· Hard to communicate
· Bad-tempered
· Losing temper on dumb people
· Stupid
· Suay
· Lazy
· Born with breasts and vagina
· Not thick skin (my sleeping posture suggest that I have thin skin. Can’t blame)
· Irritating

My life is meaningless. Willing to exchange my life with the victims of Cyclone Nargis or China quake. Just don’t let me die from kidney failure, brain or stomach cancer or any other deadly illnesses whose symptoms I experienced or is experiencing. Tell me when and where the next disaster is going to strike.

P.S. I’m not seeking any attention. I am training for PP but grammar CMI and I still lack (2000 – 614) words. Thank you.

Labels: Family, Friends, Karma, RP, Upset